Rather wilderness than beauty

Inspired by my feelings and Samko's eyes.
No beauty, rather wilderness in this sadness.
Tired, tired... and sick.

There's things that numb our sensitivity; hunger is numbed by too much food, purity by sex allusions we encounter almost everywhere, creativity by so many distractions.

Today I went running and felt sick afterwards and that was the best part of the day because I could feel what was in me, hiding under too much comfort.